The grass may be greener ....

It is 8:37pm.
Noah is asleep ...

in his crib...

in his room...

And has been...

since 8p.m...

with no screaming.

I'm not sure how that all happened, and I doubt it's over for the night, but there is a God. This moment is proof. So I am going to sleep - while I can.

And I will edit this throughout the night - as the situation progresses - if I have a night to blog about.

Sweet and peaceful sleep for all...I hope.


10:06 - Noah started crying, let him cry until 10:15. I went in there, got him out of his crib (big no-no, I know. Shush). I held him for a couple minutes, tried to give him a bottle of water, he didn't want it, so I put him back down. He was quiet, almost back asleep, until he realized I was leaving, then he started screaming.

It is now 10:25. I am going to turn the monitor down, and go back to sleep. Even though I feel like a horrible, awful mom. I KNOW he just wants me though. And I can't have another day like today. So beyond tired. I need my sleep and sanity back. Dr. Quinn warned me this could take 2 hours this first night. I might go crazy, if I don't turn him down a little.

It's 10:28 and he is quiet. Not sleeping, I can hear him rustling around, but not screaming. Could he have really given up that easily????
10:30 - still not a peep.
10:33 - Well, jeez. That was to ea...(Opps, spoke to soon) LOL - there he goes again.
10:39 - It is quiet in there again. We shall see. I am going to do this. No matter what, I need to regain some of what is mine, my sleep, my space, my something. I feel very selfish but it has to happen. Today. I can NOT have another day like today. (10:41-still quiet in there) This blog - may be my only outlet, and I may only be talking to myself - but it actually does help - which is odd, but comforting. Okay, off to sleep some more......


Well, believe it or not - it is 4:21 a.m. and I just got out of bed for the first time since the last time I wrote. He woke up about 4, I waited about 5 minutes then went to check and make sure he wasn't poopy or soaking wet. I got him out (YES, I KNOW) rocked with him a few minutes, gave him a bottle of water and put him back down. Yea, me, the anti-crying it out mommy put him back in his crib, wide awake. He screamed, I shut the door. Came back to my room (to find Bri in my bed - LOL - least she knows the words "go back to sleep" and "shhh") and waited, listening on the monitor to his screaming.

However, it is now 4:27 and it is quiet in his room. And has been since about 4:23. No rustling, no crying, I think he is asleep already. The kid must have known I'd about lost it yesterday, because this has been amazing. (4:28 - still quiet) I am more awake and rested right now then I have been throughout pretty much his whole life. I've gotten the Most sleep I have gotten tonight, then through hiw WHOLE life. (4:29-still not a peep).

Back to sleep - I still have 2 hours before I have to be up for the day. Thank you to everyone praying for us, and I hope everyone else that is have a great sleep.

6am - up for the day.

Not to shabby